Poem

I know.
It's been lacking
before I run off to lunch
so many things
many many things
swirl my mind
like a tornado cupcake
a tornado cupcake one asks?
yes,
one that has made a mess all over my life
but as you lick the icing
it is still sweet
but to many things that I have to do
have to take care of
I can't stop to taste
most of them I don't want to do
my life just keeps going
in this bubble
and without my job
I'd have no check into reality
but before life runs me off today
I though I'd stop
and catch up
and maybe rant a little
about the room thats a mess
the bills to be paid
the tasks to be done
and oh the homework
the homework
where my motivation disappears completely
where a ration myself
5 minutes
10 more minutes
turns into 2 more hours
of watching my favorite poets in youtube
youtube can be so deadly
I just want to climb
climb this giant mountain that's holding me back
paper after paper after paper
but I have found my problem
when the one thats due first is the one i don't want to do
when its a choice between youtube and a different assignment
maybe not pertinent but still needing to be conquered
today I will choose the other assignment.

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Futures and Freshmen

Oh the joys of freshmen. Gotta love them! I love being a first connection mentor, really truly, because I get to meet so many wonderful people. The pre-orientation program (first connection) for cultural diversity is just an amazing opportunity for the freshmen who decide to take part in it. And it's a lot of fun, for both the mentors like me and especially for all the mentee's. that's who we do it for really truly freshies, it's all for you. I'm meeting some of the coolest new peeps on campus, but it brings me to the sad fact that I will only be with them for 1 year. Crazy right?

Everything lately seems to remind me about my future. And I mean everything. The last time I'll do this, or I won't get to do that. I wish I could stop thinking about it most times because it makes me so anxious. on the other hand I'm excited to just be living my life, the life I've wanted to live for so long. To live in an apartment, work a job that makes me happy, to help others and be around people, and most importantly be myself. You know maybe I could have a social life again? or a love life?

Ugh my love life is non existent and even that makes me think about my future and the type of person I want to be with. I don't know how to meet people, or maybe I just don't have the time. I need to start making the time. Maybe this year will be different, just maybe. :)

So for all you new freshmen out there, come chill with me, come talk to me. Cleveland Young 335. OOOOh and bring me posters for my wall, its looking a little barren. Talk to you all soon, when I think about what more to write about. Having writing blanks at the moment. Peace.

Oh Blog...

...How I love you so. Although I know I don't show it. Jeez you could even see the mania in the way I wrote that last post. I'll be back very soon blog lovers, very soon.